Lihle Mtshali's Dairy : Feelings

Lihle Mtshali's Dairy : Feelings: It’s easier said than done, I’ve said a whole lot of things that I didn’t even mean one bit, as a result it has hurt me and the ones clos...

Hello Winter

Hello winter

Some of us have been waiting for you

Some of us hate you

Come let’s all ride with winter

Come grab on that heater

Let’s stay warm hold each other

Brother and sister like there’s no other

Let’s unite in this cold like never

The morning comes grab that jersey

I know I’m not going to New Jersey

I thank God I made it, it, it

Drink, drink, and drink that coffee

Come get a lil comfy

You know that I’m styling

I don’t understand why you dying

The evening comes grab a blanket

It’s time to put those dreams on the market

I thank God he blessed me me me

Abundantly, exceedingly above all I can ask for

Come pray with me today

You know it’s the right thing to do

hello rain, hello snow, shine!!!

undone.. random thoughts

Absolute regardless of others feelings we always tend to think we do what’s best and that it benefits others on contrary, we only do what’s best for us, for our egos and definitely something that makes us feel good. I mean who wouldn’t want to do something that pleases him/her. Are we really there for each other? Are we really helping each other wholeheartedly when I say wholeheartedly meaning helping someone without expecting something in return? That’s just out of curiosity, they say curiosity killed the cat and perhaps satisfaction brought it back to life. Today I will not talk about me but about life in general. Now days you can’t even help your own daughter or son because of greed, people are hungry, I mean hungry scavengers who are always ready to attack, manipulate, corrupt the nation.

Memories can either make you or break you

Memories can either make you or break you

I’ve always lived in my own shell with all my difficulties; my pillows must be weary of my moans for they are the only one that knows my agony. I pray to the uppermost God but feels like my prayers are being imprisoned somewhere. I really want be a cool kid with no uncertainties. Existence just gets harder and harder as you nurture. I really want to be happy but reality hits me. You know at times I feel like taking my own being since happiness is just hard to find, not a day goes by without me praying and trying but nought happens. People recommend that I go consult I’m just afraid too.

I’ve done did a lot growing up, good things and bad, those memories are not obliterated they there as evidence that hey! You once did that. Memories can either make you or break. you choose. I reminisce a lot about my life my past. The things I did and didn’t do. The should have and the shouldn’t haves it’s confusing. If you dwell too much on your past you end up missing the great things happening to you without even noticing it. It’s absurd because we are not the same we don’t handle situations the same. We do it differently and that either makes us lame or unique which ever one works for you.

Maybe I cared too much of others feelings and disregarded my own. I remember there was a point in life where I had to decide, decide whether it’s me or the other person, you can only guess what my conclusion was.

I don’t know if I’m living the life of regrets or what, I guess at this point my memories are breaking me each and every single day. The love, joy, sadness, and comparisons of how I think I should be today and I’m not getting that. I’m filled with nothing with pity for myself and pure sadness. I miserably failed myself. I cannot lie and say I’m happy. Others would be judgemental and say I don’t appreciate life and the blessings. Others would see this pretty bubbly lady and think she has no worries in the world. Dude I feel like I carry the most burden in the whole wide world. Maybe I’m exaggerating a bit but hey it is what it is.

You know like any other being when a new year twitches, we have expectations and objectives that this year, is my year and I was quite positive when the year started.

All I can say to conclude is that I’m not giving up I will continue praying, continue pushing. Life is not a walk in a park you will go through hell to get to heaven I guess. God will embarrass you and show the world who you really are before blessing you. When it rains it pores.

 

MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS WHAT IS FREEDOM?

My Brothers and sisters what is freedom?

Thembelihle Mtshali

I am highly disgusted by our brothers and sisters in South Africa. I really don’t think this has anything to do with existence of foreigners in South Africa, since black African men are assassinating other black African men, not Indians, Chinese or whites. I sat down and thought about it. Why are you brutally hurting each other? I really fail to understand how could you murder and destroy innocent people? Those who are brave enough to take risks. Foreign men are not afraid to build a mini shop opposite a very big and successful supermarket and as far as leaving their home countries, their roots, their family so they could provide and progress. It’s like history is repeating apartheid times our great grandmothers and fathers were slayed for no virtuous purpose and currently our fellow South African are doing the same and more especially to their own race. What is wrong with black African society? They just don’t want to see another black individual develop the spirit of wealth. Black Africans have problems with each other they just can’t stand seeing another improving being fruitful. They are lazy and being spoilt by their president. I won’t point fingers because there’s absolutely no good reason for these xenophobic attacks, how do you live with yourself? This spasm won’t make you any richer or get you that million dollar job. This is absolute stupidity and it’s absurd. Attacking foreign owned tuck shops and stealing their goods won’t make you any healthier. Typical black men, who don’t want to wake up and be useful, see them in queues to play the National lottery. Wake up O sleeper, rise from the dead and Christ will shine on you.

I ask myself what is freedom. Who are we? Are WE not ONE? This reminds me of Ubuntu! “umuntu ngumuntu ngabantu” but our brothers and sisters have forgotten all about that. What example are we setting to the future generation? Solving issues by war? Really? Come on South Africans STOP XENOPHOBIA and be open to suggestions and not kill.

“DO TO OTHERS AS YOU WANT DONE TO YOU”

 

MEMORIES

IN MY DEEPEST THOUGHT, I ASK MYSELF WILL I EVER FORGET. ITS HARD TO FORGET THE GREATEST THINGS IN LIFE.

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